have you ever just looked at someone and thought, my fucking god i adore you. i adore every goddamn ounce. i adore your bones and your soul. but I’m a loser, who just doesn’t wanna lose you. i can lose fucking everything, but not you. oh god. not you.
i wonder if anyone has thought this about me.
Looking over my old Tumblr posts makes me feel so uncomfortable, lol. I haven’t been on Tumblr in months and it’s crazy to think about how much has changed.
This time last year, I was a sad and lonely mess. Now I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. In one year, I went from working at a job I hated to quitting because I wanted to live with my boyfriend in Lubbock because I couldn’t stand the distance. We moved in together after a month of being together. A MONTH. lol. I lived with him and his weed smoking roommate in a cramped up apartment. I also got my first dog this year and our first official apartment together that is in a beautiful area. Not cramped with furniture we’re financing on. I recently got hired at a new job that I already love, a home to call my own, and a boyfriend who treats me better than I have ever been treated ever. I think it’s almost a blessing that I have been through everything I’ve been through in the past, because now I’m more appreciative than ever. I have so much to be grateful for. xx